Dear myself
I have found myself unsure about everything I do know. I have tried so many times to be perfect. I try hard to get things done. sacrifice to much that I have lost myself. Scared to be Happy. Scared to live. I have found myself working hard to get things done.
Just maybe I just need to take a break from everything around me. I just need the ocean. get out this bubble that I can't breathe in.
I feel lost in all this craziness around me. Ever since my mom past, I have been keeping myself going. Not wanting to think about what has happened a year ago. Then, using my friend at the same time, I feel numbed. As everyone live their life, I am trap in this bubble. Trapped in this wave of trying to stay afloat with everything.
As I try and keep my new job to everyday lifestyle to getting things done. I am overwhelmed. I am starting to see where I have not healed all the way.
I see that just maybe I need a new start but I have no idea where I need to start. I am alone and I have to smile for my kids. I have no one to talk to but muyself.
As life goes on and I try not to have my problems be everyone else's problem, I realize sooner or later I will have to heal I will have to go take a break for 2 weeks and enjoy life.
Thank you for listening.
"No Problem. It's okay to get it all out."
Love,
myself
