Truth

Dear Myself

  You know the truth as it hurts. I ask myself where are my friends and you tell me there gone but some will come back. I ask you what happen to my relationship and you tell me " It wasn't good for you anyways. In season your soulmate will come.
  I have many questions but you always have answers for me. I even try to make the negative thoughts into positive thoughts.
   I see great things in people but they seems to feed off of my energy but some how I do the opposite of what I say. Then you come along and tell me keep going you will find the road.
   I never did until now. I never notice my mistakes until now. I see things that I wish I saw sooner.
 Now I'm alone and no one can fix that.
I'm always the fixer when it comes to other people. I see my life as to stressful why bring in a mix of other problems. Maybe I view them as problems when maybe they could be good for me.
  I put to much pressure on myself that I barely understand why.
I try and count my dots and cross my T's but some how I slip and I feel terrible when I mess up.
  I know I'm missing out on great things but I can't seem to get pass the things that hurt. I know crazy right and unreal but I will make it another night I think.
Tomorrow should be better then this day. I'm sure of it as I will hopefully tell you again later on in the day, something have to change.



Love,
   
    Myself.