hello again

 Hello 

I'm dying huh? It's a simple question you can tell me. it's not complicated. I can feel myself slowly falling apart. Bloody nose as I try to keep it to myself. Doctor is out the question.

   Maybe just breath

     Breath for what

You have a lot going on, I understand

  No, you can't possible understand. Soon, I will have to be... alone

I know but you can do it

See, I know I can but I don't want to. I'm tired and just tired. My body is breaking down. My mental mind set is just overloaded with so many things to where I can barely keep up with certain things anymore. I put on a smile and pretend. Inside I'm dying. Inside I know I'm not ready.

"Take some time. things will get better.

Ha, I thought that too. It never did just tears and more tears.

  No more talking for now. Maybe later,

"Okay but I promise it will get better"

love, 

Myself.