Life....? :/

Dear Myself
  I have debated and debated in my head how in the heck am I going to survive the next 2 in a half months of 2017. I will be running around and looking for a great opportunity to start a new life. Well what really is a new life?
  It doesn't matter, all I know I will be running after kids and trying my hardest to get things line up for me.
  searching for the right degree in college seems to be a mystery to me as I wonder around on this earth asking myself  "what is next"
  Time is passing and people are getting married, having babies, starting there dream job or even starting there own business. Some even travel the world and go to one country or two to only remember the fantastic time they had.
  Of course people die and they get sick but did they really live? Was there happiness in there life? Those questions run through my mind as I wake up every morning wondering if I'm truly happy. How much do I need to sacrifice or do I?
  I'm starting to understand the statement when people say " You regret the things you didn't do then the once you did"