Dear Myself
You are in control
You are the one that has to do what's right for yourself
If you don't feel like picking up the phone then don't..Even when people get mad at you for not picking up.
Do what you feel is right. Do as you need as you will cry towards the night wanting more then you have.
Feeling like shit because you have proved to be relying on your parents help as you slowly grow up trying to find a better job and not know if you are able to afford a place on your own. Even doubt lingers as you are unsure if you want to leave the nest. Even if you say you do are you truly ready? Can you be ready?
You might have fear but you learn how to adapt to certain situations so well that you know no one esle that you know could do the things you had to do or understand any of your actions. Your own mother doesn't as your brain is wired different from hers.
You try your best but that is never enough.
You crave for sleep as sleep is not even important anymore. You want reinsurance that each desicion you make will not affect the ones around you anymore but improve there lives.
Most importantly you are scared to take a step forward because all you do is take 2 steps back. That's how it feels.
That's how you feel about moving so far to only take 2 steps back in the future, life and love.
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