Saturday, September 22, 2018

Dealing with life

Dear myself
 It's been a while. To long that it's been hard coping with life. It feels like shit most days and others it feels like I'm just living. I hope that makes since someway.
  I told you I would find a new job but I'm still looking: (
  Can't seem to find the one that fits my life style. It's not easy leaving a job for another. Of course at work I want to be silent because I have to much going on.
 I'm think about what's going to be for dinner to kids and will I have enough money to buy the snow gear to paying bills that work drama I sure don't want.
  Wanting to go back to school seems to be a struggle because I have no idea what to take and money.
  Wanting to leave my job because I'm tired of pretending to be happy when I'm miserable.
  Finally taking a moment to cry in silence feels so good letting it out.
  Tomorrow I will have to put on my joyful face and do it again.
  Maybe tomorrow we will talk more if I'm not to tired.

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