Dear Myself,
Did you cry all night?
"Yes"
Did it make you feel better?
"A little"
I know the pain is still there. I felt a sharp pain that I cried for you. Your heart is broken but Yah can fix it.
"No he can't fix it. I did last time and I ask for it back. I beg for it back and I wish I haven't. Maybe it wouldn't hurt so much or I will feel nothing.
Please don't you have 4 months. Give it 4months. You shall see how things will change. Cry at night so no one can hear you.
whip away your tears early so people can't see the puffiness in your eyes. Remember you are planning every little step. You might not have to after those 4months.
"Yes, it hurts. When I think about it I cry so I rather not" I will do my regular activates as a mother but once that time comes you know it's time for me,
No don't let Satan win. He tried you multiple times. I know it's hard to keep going. He tried to kill you when you was first born. He tried to break you when you was young and now he took something that was special to you on this earth and turn it against you. Don't let him win. Let Yah fix this. He can just watch.
"I have nothing now. I work hard and stay focus. I thought someone was coming for me but he never did. I'm tired now. No saving."
No stop and think. Give me 4months to fix this. I promise you I can. Stay away from people or ones that are not good for you. Hide yourself for 4months. Try your best and keep crying but sooner or later you won't be able to cry anymore. I will be there and you will see.
"Okay I will try but I'm not promising anything"
I will take that
Talk to you soon
:(
Love,
Myself
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