If I didn't tell you the truth then, well there is no point in having the blog. You see most people would say there life's been flip up all around side ways do to Covic-19.
I say mines is due to my mom having cancer. There that is when my life stop. I had no more day care for my kids. I had to balance meals all by myself. I had to keep all the burden on me as stress out to only have grey hair pop up before my birthday.
I couldn't be selfish as I wanted to run away and have me time. Working was not a option as I need it to make away to take care of my mom. Once I did that, I figure I could balance out working. I thought I had time as time was passing me. I thought I was helping but I was doing the opposite.
So, covic-19 hit. I figure it will pass and I can go back to work or just balance shit out with a mask on my dam face as keep my distance. No instead I have high risk people in the house. Instead I need to be careful at all times.
Then there is work. Hmm, the government want you to look for work when the pandemic is at it's worse. Maybe just where I am at but I have no idea. Now I had to reply to something I shouldn't have to. Unemployment but at least it is done. Do all the process of waiting in agony trying to figure out if they except your claim since you decide it to work for a job for one day and then realize you was working everyday and only getting paid 26.5 hours each week. I didn't want to work everyday and not make enough.
Then I figure caregiving would be a great option. Get in and get out. I asked my mom before I went to the next step of the job. Maybe I miss something but for me I have lost my unemployment because I exhausted out my benefits. Aid is coming they say but I had to reapply because the PEU was different and you have to reapply for unemployment all over again. Yeah go figure with this crazy shit. So I did it and now have to call a work center to update my information. You see, I figure why do more work then I should have to if my information is in there. More stalling I see it as.
Okay, you see I have lost my job because I had to quit do to my boss being a asshole about my mom being sick so by work and hello mom. Second, my unemployment ran out and I was looking for work anyways but the right one that I can do safely due to my family.
No daycare and not able to go on the other side of my mom's house, I'm left with trying to look for a job online.
I did but was it worth it? No not at all. Then I find myself looking as Covic-19 get worse. I cry inside as I keep my shit together. I have no idea why I think it's more off she thinks she will not be here long enough so I have to stay home and keep memories as finding a job online seems to be, well I know I will stink at it.
Kids need to be homeschooled and I need to help. I just feel like my life is crumbling slowly as I was trying to get to the top but it came crashing down.
Sometimes I just feel like "If the government is going to fall, just let it fall, then put me in so much pain." maybe it is giving me time to do something. Having nothing and not able to go do something about it is the hardest thing.
I feel like I'm sick too
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