Dear myself
You got this don't give up. I see you want to cry but you stay strong. You are worried but you won't say it.2months are you still going.....
"Stop, I will just cry because I don't know if I will have a happy ending. I know I will cry but I will be okay in hope"
Keep on going as you will see.
Love,
Myself
Friday, March 15, 2019
Sunday, February 10, 2019
Made it....Dear Myself
Dear myself,
you made it to day. You stood your ground. he can't mentally bully you anymore. You don't have to feel sorry for him anymore. I'm proud of you. Now it's your choice to discount for a while. Healing is important. I know it's a process but you are stronger then you think.
You have 4months still?
"Yes"
Hmmm 4 months enjoy it. Do things you never done or just to scared to. See life and you will find what you are looking for.
"I know but...."
There is a but..can't seem to find the words you are looking for?
"Yup, because now I'm living a little bit more. I took my first step today. I went out with my coworkers. Staff party"
Great...first step to healing. Smile more it will get better I promise. Yah got you
"Thank you. Another day but no contact with him. Change number I hope that's right.....I should I need to heal. Love hurts"
I know but you shall see it again and it will never leave.
: )
love,
Myself
you made it to day. You stood your ground. he can't mentally bully you anymore. You don't have to feel sorry for him anymore. I'm proud of you. Now it's your choice to discount for a while. Healing is important. I know it's a process but you are stronger then you think.
You have 4months still?
"Yes"
Hmmm 4 months enjoy it. Do things you never done or just to scared to. See life and you will find what you are looking for.
"I know but...."
There is a but..can't seem to find the words you are looking for?
"Yup, because now I'm living a little bit more. I took my first step today. I went out with my coworkers. Staff party"
Great...first step to healing. Smile more it will get better I promise. Yah got you
"Thank you. Another day but no contact with him. Change number I hope that's right.....I should I need to heal. Love hurts"
I know but you shall see it again and it will never leave.
: )
love,
Myself
Friday, February 8, 2019
Dear Myself: cry all night...dear myself
Dear Myself: cry all night...dear myself: Dear Myself, Did you cry all night? "Yes" Did it make you feel better? "A little" I know the pain is still...
cry all night...dear myself
Dear Myself,
Did you cry all night?
"Yes"
Did it make you feel better?
"A little"
I know the pain is still there. I felt a sharp pain that I cried for you. Your heart is broken but Yah can fix it.
"No he can't fix it. I did last time and I ask for it back. I beg for it back and I wish I haven't. Maybe it wouldn't hurt so much or I will feel nothing.
Please don't you have 4 months. Give it 4months. You shall see how things will change. Cry at night so no one can hear you.
whip away your tears early so people can't see the puffiness in your eyes. Remember you are planning every little step. You might not have to after those 4months.
"Yes, it hurts. When I think about it I cry so I rather not" I will do my regular activates as a mother but once that time comes you know it's time for me,
No don't let Satan win. He tried you multiple times. I know it's hard to keep going. He tried to kill you when you was first born. He tried to break you when you was young and now he took something that was special to you on this earth and turn it against you. Don't let him win. Let Yah fix this. He can just watch.
"I have nothing now. I work hard and stay focus. I thought someone was coming for me but he never did. I'm tired now. No saving."
No stop and think. Give me 4months to fix this. I promise you I can. Stay away from people or ones that are not good for you. Hide yourself for 4months. Try your best and keep crying but sooner or later you won't be able to cry anymore. I will be there and you will see.
"Okay I will try but I'm not promising anything"
I will take that
Talk to you soon
:(
Love,
Myself
Did you cry all night?
"Yes"
Did it make you feel better?
"A little"
I know the pain is still there. I felt a sharp pain that I cried for you. Your heart is broken but Yah can fix it.
"No he can't fix it. I did last time and I ask for it back. I beg for it back and I wish I haven't. Maybe it wouldn't hurt so much or I will feel nothing.
Please don't you have 4 months. Give it 4months. You shall see how things will change. Cry at night so no one can hear you.
whip away your tears early so people can't see the puffiness in your eyes. Remember you are planning every little step. You might not have to after those 4months.
"Yes, it hurts. When I think about it I cry so I rather not" I will do my regular activates as a mother but once that time comes you know it's time for me,
No don't let Satan win. He tried you multiple times. I know it's hard to keep going. He tried to kill you when you was first born. He tried to break you when you was young and now he took something that was special to you on this earth and turn it against you. Don't let him win. Let Yah fix this. He can just watch.
"I have nothing now. I work hard and stay focus. I thought someone was coming for me but he never did. I'm tired now. No saving."
No stop and think. Give me 4months to fix this. I promise you I can. Stay away from people or ones that are not good for you. Hide yourself for 4months. Try your best and keep crying but sooner or later you won't be able to cry anymore. I will be there and you will see.
"Okay I will try but I'm not promising anything"
I will take that
Talk to you soon
:(
Love,
Myself
Thursday, February 7, 2019
Dear Myself: Breath
Dear Myself: Breath: Dear myself Breath, it's time. You can think about whatever you want but don't forget to breath. I know the pain hurts but it wi...
Breath
Dear myself
Breath, it's time. You can think about whatever you want but don't forget to breath. I know the pain hurts but it will pass in time. I know you don't have enough time and I know you are a busy lady but you have to give time to yourself.
This month treat yourself to a new coat. You work hard so buy yourself a drink. Oh yes bowling with coworkers. Pretend to be happy on Sunday. They have no idea what is going on. stay focus. Remember I am here. I can see you. Your not alone. Yah will fix you give him 4 months. I know it seems like he can't hear you but he can.
Now go run and attend to your duties. I will be waiting later on tonight.
Whenever you need me.
love,
Myself
Breath, it's time. You can think about whatever you want but don't forget to breath. I know the pain hurts but it will pass in time. I know you don't have enough time and I know you are a busy lady but you have to give time to yourself.
This month treat yourself to a new coat. You work hard so buy yourself a drink. Oh yes bowling with coworkers. Pretend to be happy on Sunday. They have no idea what is going on. stay focus. Remember I am here. I can see you. Your not alone. Yah will fix you give him 4 months. I know it seems like he can't hear you but he can.
Now go run and attend to your duties. I will be waiting later on tonight.
Whenever you need me.
love,
Myself
Dear Myself: a couple weeks ago
Dear Myself: a couple weeks ago: Yes, I know you are tired. Of course no one will really understand. You want to give up so many times and days that you are screaming inside...
Dear Myself: Crossroads
Dear Myself: Crossroads: Dear myself I know your at a crossroad. There is no where to go. I see you I promise you I see you. Can you hear me up there. I know it ...
Crossroads
Dear myself
I know your at a crossroad. There is no where to go. I see you I promise you I see you. Can you hear me up there. I know it doesn't look pretty but you have to keep going.
I know you don't have that long. 4months seems not enough time. We all have to go someday but make everyday count. Smile in the morning and cry when you really need to. Get angry and go hit something you might as well you only have 4months.
Go outside in the freezing cold tonight and look at the stars like a crazy woman. Laugh at the most ridiculous thing or show and remember it's okay to laugh.
Maybe you should get a tattoo but remember you are on a time limit. Maybe you can get one next month. Don't forget to smile around people and not get upset. Don't show them because they don't need to know.
Talk to me tomorrow I will make you feel better
I guess who reads this will
love, Myself
I know your at a crossroad. There is no where to go. I see you I promise you I see you. Can you hear me up there. I know it doesn't look pretty but you have to keep going.
I know you don't have that long. 4months seems not enough time. We all have to go someday but make everyday count. Smile in the morning and cry when you really need to. Get angry and go hit something you might as well you only have 4months.
Go outside in the freezing cold tonight and look at the stars like a crazy woman. Laugh at the most ridiculous thing or show and remember it's okay to laugh.
Maybe you should get a tattoo but remember you are on a time limit. Maybe you can get one next month. Don't forget to smile around people and not get upset. Don't show them because they don't need to know.
Talk to me tomorrow I will make you feel better
I guess who reads this will
love, Myself
a couple weeks ago
Yes, I know you are tired. Of course no one will really understand. You want to give up so many times and days that you are screaming inside.
It's so loney it's not even funny. No one can help you and you know that.
You found out you are not allowed to get tired. You found out life is 24 hours with out any connection to people.
You have came to realize life is just life.
Work, is for 4 days and in those 4 days you act like everything is great and you smile. Inside you are dead. You have lost yourself a long time ago and you tell me what they want to hear because you are use to it. Now you are here writing on a blog people might see now and then.
Everyday you motivate yourself.
Does it even work? Somedays.
love, Myself
It's so loney it's not even funny. No one can help you and you know that.
You found out you are not allowed to get tired. You found out life is 24 hours with out any connection to people.
You have came to realize life is just life.
Work, is for 4 days and in those 4 days you act like everything is great and you smile. Inside you are dead. You have lost yourself a long time ago and you tell me what they want to hear because you are use to it. Now you are here writing on a blog people might see now and then.
Everyday you motivate yourself.
Does it even work? Somedays.
love, Myself
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